Being back

It's been 3 days now I'm back in PJ. for the first 2 nights, I had difficulty sleeping. there's just a lot of thoughts running in my head - looking for a job, paying off bills, and basically getting back into life. was feeling rather unsettled, with all the uncertainties that are ahead of me.

But later i met up with some friends, they shared with me what they've been up to, or what plans they have for themselves in the coming year (yeah...end of the year is always a reflective period for many people), it inspires me to want to do lots of things. and YES, there ARE many things that still need to be done! especially as Baha'is, we believe that the old world order is falling apart, with that, there's a lot of work to do in order to establish a new world order. simple things like organizing devotional gatherings, teaching children' or youth classes and getting together to systematically study the Word of God... these are the foundations to building communities. (alright alright, i know i sound like promo a bit, hehe..) but yeah, being young and at the heyday of our lives, if we don't do it now.. when else.

career wise... there's many opportunities lying ahead, i could choose to do so many things and i know i can, but i'll just have to think carefully what is it that i want to do with my life. do i want to make films and go for film festivals? do i want to edit anymore wedding videos? do i want to do my masters and continue studying? do i still want to live in the same apartment that i've been living for the past 5 years? do i want to get broadband internet? do i want sambal for dinner? lots of choices! lots of decisions to be made.

i'm just glad that i have a direction to turn to, if not it's always easy to form a certain reality in our mind and do what we want to do most comfortably, yet not doing what is needed or what could serve a better purpose.

yeah..it's great to be back. =)