tutuplah satu lagi fasa.

Recently, someone dear dreamt of someone dear dies. mayb she got worried and so she went online and checked out what it meant - the dream that is. to her relief, she told that someone dear, 'u're dead in my dream, means in real life, you are moving into a new chapter of ur life.' probably something major.

let's just say, someone may have dreamt that i died recently, but haven't gotten to tell me yet. =)

reading the very first entry of this blog - yes, i was right, it has been one year since i quit my job and decided to go for a 2 months long break, followed with the decision to freelance and not take any full-time job. how do i fair after one year? well, the first few months, i worked, thinking that as long as i earn the minimum i could probably survive. let me share with you an advice, as long as you are not paid for that job u did, u don't consider earning a single cent in that month. it was only till few days ago that i received payment to some of the jobs i did 6 months back. my luck got better after those months of can't-afford-to-pay-rental, i took up a contract job which secures me for 4 months. although doing the same thing still, which was editing, but i was happy - with the people i work with, and the vibe of the job. it may not be a socially conscious type of project (u know, like berkobar-kobar change the world and make it a better place), but the experience was a peaceful one for me.

then i ask myself, what was more important? to work on a project that means something but have to struggle with the people whom u work with, or to work on a no-brainer project but happy in the process of doing it?
at one glance of course working on a good cause is more noble than just being complacent with a job. (here i'm referring to 'harmless' jobs, not porn or shows that degrade people. then again, 'harmless' is subjective one may say.) but is it really? how do we find the balance?

anyways.. i wasn't planning to talk about my job in this entry.
i'd just like to mark the temporary closing of my freelance edit life. going back home tmr, H.O.M.E. *mix emotions but mostly glad*. when i come back, i'll be working on a new project which i get to do a different role this time.

on top of everything, a recent forwarded email reminded me of how important it is to balance our lives and not get too indulged with the ongoings, especially job & money. at the end of it, what is our purpose in this world?