Monday, March 27, 2006

my Naw-Ruz...























From hiking up in the mountain to visit the Wakal Baha'i community, to campfire with jokes and songs at night, and a wheel coming OUT on the way back in a van, my Naw-Ruz was just great! =)

a new song I've learnt: (will sing it upon request ;-)

I'll sing with you
teach with you
play with you
and laugh
But it won't be long
I have to go

The times we have
I'll treasure them
Memories will remain
and say the word we knew
Allah'u'Abha

There's a place
for you all in my heart
a place where love can grow
Baha'u'llah knows
coz it shows and we'll...

Teach the cause
Baha'u'llah's faith
'til we reach
every place
and say the word we knew
Allah'u'Abha

Monday, March 20, 2006

Joyous Naw-Ruz!!

19 days of fasting has gone... another half an hour, I'll be breaking fast and celebrating Naw-Ruz with my new Philippino friends, exciting-nya!!
Would like to wish everyone who's reading this blog, Bahai' or not, a very very joyous Naw-Ruz. May the new breath of spring fresh air brings you another year of purpose, filled with joy and happiness. ;-)

"...the Báb ordained the month of ‘Alá to be the month of fasting, decreed that the day of Naw-Rúz should mark the termination of that period, and designated Naw-Rúz as the Day of God. Bahá’u’lláh confirms the Badí calendar wherein Naw-Rúz is designated as a feast.
Naw-Rúz is the first day of the new year. It coincides with the spring equinox in the northern hemisphere, which usually occurs on 21 March. Bahá’u’lláh explains that this feast day is to be celebrated on whatever day the sun passes into the constellation of Aries (i.e. the vernal equinox), even should this occur one minute before sunset. Hence Naw-Rúz could fall on 20, 21, or 22 March, depending on the time of the equinox."

Friday, March 17, 2006

tidak halal ni!









YSG met a student who's doing her undergrad on slaughterhouse, and she invited him to follow her to her fieldwork. that night, at 2am, we took a taxi to this dark corner of the market, busy in the day, quiet in the night..until, u get down of the taxi and smell the distinct stench. yes..a familiar stench. during my childhood my family lived in a government's quarter by a stream where the slaughterhouse/pig farms were upriver. only when we walked to the stream we could smell that stench..

anywayz, it was quite a sight. 25 men at work. all killing pigs. knocking their heads with big hammers until the pig stopped grunting and struggling, then cut them apart. More gruesome photos and videos i've got, but that's all i'll put here.
some photos of the market, having dinner with my housemate - ysg, mary (the owner) and jenny (she's 8 months pregnant, due anytime next week), and the sunrise scene from my window which i see every morning while eating my breakfast.

This morning we interviewed a lady who works in an NGO that organizes the urban poor people, and also the street vendors. She shared her struggles in the NGO, and also some difficulties faced working with the government and the vendors.
yesterday, i got Mary to do a reflective interview with me, who's also the research assistant for ysg's project.. she's an activist, also a theatre practitioner. everytime, it touches me when i meet people who are so concerned with humanity, pure hearted people who just want to make the lives of OTHER people better.

"it is difficult to gain their trust at first, who are we to come and want to do research on their lives? why should they reveal part of their lives to us, in the name of research?" "many of them have very simple dreams, they don't hope for anything more but to be able toe at 3 times a day, and their biggest pride is to be able to send their children to school" - Mary.

with the lady we interviewed this morning, we found out that some vendor, who's also the head of some vendors' association, been collecting money from other vendors, claiming that protection can be given. street vendors here face possibility of their stalls being demolished anytime, reason because of the anti-peddling law, and vendors aren't supposed to vend by the streets because they are public spaces.

suddenly it dawned on me, vendor or no vendor, there will always be a minority (or even majority) of people trying to take advantage of the others. the lady uses the word 'unity' a lot, referring to the collaboration between associations, etc. my thought was, if the driving force to 'unite', is mainly material - to get more $, for better house and better job (which definitely IS essential for a living), maybe the result will usually be less up to the expectation. YSG told me that he met few vendors who's faith plays an important role in their lives, which probably is the key reason that keep them going. Many vendors are Muslim Philippinos fled from Mindanao, their stories are truly heart-wrenching...

the name of the project we're working on:
"Being a Street Vendor: A critical ethnographic study of Sidewalk Capitalism in Baguio City."

Thursday, March 16, 2006

glimpse of my baguio life...











can't really call it my "life" here yet considering i'm only here for the past .. err.. 2 days. but it's been interesting. the living room and the bedroom is where i live, with a lady named Mary. YSG, aka my 'boss', ehhe, he's the one making the documentary here and i'm just assisting in some edit work. that's my work station. and the scenery u can see is this morning when i wake up eating my bread for breakfast - looking at the sunrise from my window. beautiful isn't it.. and the nightshot i took last night at some mall, after watching this baha'i guy, Arliz performed in a cafe. This saturday i will be meeting some Baha'is there as he's having another concert. oh yeah, i cooked today! eheh.. ysg instructed me, but i must say i'm a fast learner. hehe..felt nice eating my own dish, and mama's secret sarawakians belacan ingredient which i brought along. :)

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

more info on baguio

dr.yeoh's the one who invited me over to help edit his ethnographic documentary, part of the paper he has to write for getting the grant from Nippon Foundation. Have a look at his blog

a University Town

travelled the whole day:4 hours of flight, 5 hours of bus ride up the mountain. I'm now at the highest city in Philippines - introducing Baguio.
I'm staying with a lady who built her own house, like many other local people, they're very creative with their designs, very colorful, and very DIY. I gotta show some pics of the house. I'll be sleeping in the attic sort of space. looking out of the window, I can see night lights of the city. and it's coooooldd..!! probably about 5km above sea level, this place is packed with young people who came from all over Philippines to study in the local universities here. It's a mixture of Sikkim - how the houses are built along the slopes, Bukit tinggi - up the hill and near a volcano, Cameron - the weather, the freshness, Ranau - up up up the mountain overlooking other hills. really, am already loving the place.
Had dinner at some live band restaurant. When we were kids, during special occasions or when dad's in a good mood, the family gets to go to a hotel to listen to live Philippino band. right now, it's just EVERYWHERE. English is widely spoken here, and signboards are colorful. Heard lots of how diverse the cultures here are, looking forward to take photographs during the day. also can't wait to check out their clubs, and meet some Baha'i friends. :-)

Monday, March 13, 2006

baguio

baguio, here I come! finally, in another 4 hours time, i'm supposed to wake up to head to the airport..yupp, for my flight to philippines. i never thought of going philippines, mayb because i don't know anyone there, also i don't really hear much of philippines besides the occasional political unrest. must say, the opportunity arises that i get to visit a friend, to help with a little documentary work, and also for a few day's break. another break u may say, hehe. but somehow i feel like i needed it - really looking forward to it. hopefully fasting won't be too difficult for me, have to wake up earlier, and crossing my fingers that the weather won't be a killer. but i'll get to celebrate naw ruz there!! YEAAAhhh.....!!

more pics comin' up! ;-)

Sunday, March 12, 2006

good game

today, i finally reached the height of enjoying soccer. gosh, henry da man. liverpool vs. arsenal. sadly, the team i adopted lost. but gosh it was just *beautiful* to watch him play... ^_^

Monday, March 06, 2006

kill time

Here I am, trying to kill time. its 645pm, the clock ticked away fast - maybe because i was doing work, maybe because i was staying indoor: a rather comfortable warehouse-turned-office place.
yesterday, i finally walked into this production house to do the job my fren passed on to me. besides it being a rather easy job for the amount i'm getting paid for, i made new friends (who constantly try to feed me and think that i'm on this massive diet) and got to learn couple of new stuffs. after 10hours of just cutting and pasting images around, i went home feeling 'careerly-fulfilled'. it's been sometime i felt like i've "worked". ahha. *this 'ability' of mine to work 12 hours straight, i shouldn't even be proud of it 'cause it's not something i would propagate. but it does come in handy when needed*

i went online to read up what's this company all about. they've only been around 4 years, have always worked on tv commercials of which some were award-winning. the director who i worked with won some major advertising award for an ad he directed. cool. and just the other day at the animator's training we discussed about the influence of advertising on today's younger generation. (i sensed an immediate test from Upthere.)

the major difference between this company and the previous one i worked in, is gender. it's like 99% male! only 2 girls i see around. one's a freelancer, and another in-house girl who so happened to be my senior in college. 'was it difficult being around men all the time?' she forced a smile.

nevertheless i m still rather attracted to the surroundings. probably is the adrenaline rush of the work, or the jobs they get to do... all the big big client. ha!
oh..gotta get back to work - more changes to do. =/

Friday, March 03, 2006

one step at a time...

Today, two people said this to me:
"Have confidence. You can do it." this is a guy I hardly know, the hi-and-bye type of friend you know. He passed on a job he couldn't do for me, and was running through everything as detailed as he could with me. it's either that's his nature of being very specific, or he's just worried that I might not perform up to the expectation of the client. whichever it was, I was very grateful that a stranger was being so nurturing and patient with me.

Another friend:
"I really can't go. You have to do it alone."
Nooooo....I don't want to go alone!
"You have to. Be strong."
I gulped and closed my eyes, probably I won't go with him, I'll get someone else to accompany me.
Alright, that's cheating.

I realized I do depend on Rosh A LOT when he was around. When he left, the things that were running in my head were "I have to do everything alone now?"
I mean, I wasn't even living with my parents at the first place, of course most things I have been doing all by myself. To tell you the truth, there are few things I *dread* doing. Namely, dealing with people from the bank, credit card, insurance, govt dept, mechanic, customer service etc. Rosh usually handles for & with me.

"You've got it all, what's holding you back?"
Me? Got it all? Why didn't I think of that? A huge hammer just knocks my head and I can see birdies circling me.

Things have been a little rough on my side. Mainly, the material side. Going through everyday, doing things I enjoy and taking my time, it was fabulous! Yet reality bites when the end of the month comes. Freelancing definitely is not a bed of roses. Yet I seriously could not complain. How can I ever allow myself to be down because of $?! Be thankful in adversity... I joked to a friend, 40 years down the road maybe I'll look back and say gosh, when I was 23, I didn't even have enough to pay my rent.

Baha'u'llah is very kind to me. I got two calls after that.